"Тоска моя светла"


After a good swim
   I'm getting out of the river -
the feeling is quite Baltic -
  and walk on the grass
 imagining
I'm walking to my mom,
   my step-father
and my little brother
   along the sands of Pärnu...

That was my last holiday 
   with my parents
     before my last year
      at secondary school
And before my fatal mistake
   when I dumped my first and true love...
who was intended as a spouse for my life-time...

I was so happy back then -
   with my parents and their friends...
And my little brother was so sweet...
  Now he is 53 and has 4 kids...

That summer
   I could have gone
to an International camp
  in Československo
with the girls from my form.

Somehow I didn't regret it at all...
 And I don't
regret it now...

In Pärnu
 we had a little house of our own.

It wasn't our own,
  but felt as if it were...

My life was all in store -
   with all the sufferings 
and glamour of my work...

And - most importantly -
   I was in love
and with my parents...

Now they are gone...


July 17, 2026
The Silver Forest