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Olga Slobodkina-von Bromssen

1. Jane Ostin

It would have never occured to me

to read Jane Ostin...

I've always thought her

a silly Victorian writer,

but the films...

The films are fun.

It's especially nice

to look at pretty faces.

The plots are all about

love and money -

nothing new.

But yesterday

I watched

"Northanger Abbey"

until 4 a.m.

and the end

amazed me

as something really great.

The parson said:

"There was no blood

or murder,

but vampirism..."

(oh, Fate!)

"He drained the life of her

by being cold and dry...

The worst crimes

are the crimes of the heart..."

Oh, my!

I've had it all my life...

Sept.14. 2023

***

2. Sleepless nights...

Something is always hurting

when you're a baby...

Sleepless nights...

Before an exam,

a concert,

a presentation,

an exhibition...

Sleppless nights...

when your baby is crying...

Sleepless nights...

when your teen-ager

does not come home after midnight

Sleepless nights...

when your spouse is gone...

Sleepless nights...

when your old parent isn't well...

Sleepless nights...

before a wedding,

a funeral...

Sleepless nights...

in times of sickness or stress...

Sleepless nights...

before the last great change...

Nov. 1, 2023

***

3. A singer? -

Yes.

An actress?

- What are you talking about?

They have to learn their roles,

know their lines...

I'd like to write a script, though...

Great movie scrip on history

that has been never touched

by screen or pen.

And then a comic one -

how I was looking for the actor,

Leo di Caprio.

A while ago a singing competition VOICE

was won...

you stand or sit?

Sit down - 't would be better.

A woman won it

who was 75.

So I have 10 more years to go...

A singer?

Yes.

And if I can't perform myself

I'll go on writing and composing songs...

But even then

I will not be fulfilled...

Oct. 15, 2023

***

4. St. George killing the Dragon,

the Patron Saint of Moscow,

is soaring

in the evening clouds -

all shades of grey and steel...

If Evil could be killed,

deleted

this life could have been different,

very different...

But Evil can't be killed...

However, it can be deleted

by the Lord...

I hope one day it'll be deleted.

God's Will!

April 21, 2023

***

5. What is the difference

between a bright creative person

and a downright mediocre one?

Where we see art -

they see dirt.

Where we see poetry -

they see buttery.

Where we feel inspiration -

they feel indignation.

At the beginning of our ways

they laught at us

thinking and openly calling us crazy.

Then, when recognition comes,

they envy

and their jealous energy is like a murder,

black avalanche...

But what I want to say...

I really pity them...

What do they have!

Aug.6, 2023

***

6. I haven't read the whole letter

from Charlie Chaplin

to Geraldine, his daughter,

but I remember this:

"If someone acts better than you,

dances better than you

never forget the Chaplin fa-

-mily."

I thought about it.

Someone can write better than me,

create more stunning ima-

gery,

but noone can do exactly the same thing.

And if my art is unique

I can take the rest

ea-

si-

ly...

Viewbug gave me a new badge EXTRA-

OR-

DI-

Na-

telling me

"I have an uncanny knack

for time free-

zing

(in parenthesis - Right! I am a time freezer!)

and an eye

extraordinarily transforming ordinary scenes

into captivating visual tales with one click;

that I paint light and shade

turning life's fleeting moments

into everlasting memo-

ries.

And that I don't just take pixs,

whether it's the play of colors or the magic of monochrome things,

but weave

dreams and emotions through the lens of my photogra-

phy.

August 6, 2023

http://lit.lib.ru/img/s/slobodkina_o/ihaventreaddoc/index.shtml

https://www.viewbug.com/ru/member/olgaslobodkinavonbromssen

7. The same city,

the same subjects...

Boaring?

Oh, no!

My Metropolis is endless and pouring.

And yet I need to go...

- Where to, madam?

- Another planet...

With no evil,

only kindness and love.

And all the miracles of nature...

"We're all in the gutter,

but some are watching the stars..."*

Stars above...

I don't want to be in the gutter...

I want to live on another planet

with no evil or sufferings,

only kindness and admiration -

to create art, intrinsically beautiful

and inexplicably génial

July 27, 2023

_________________________________

*Oscar Wilde "Lady Windermere's Fan"

***

8. One more ice-cream?

No, thank you.

I don't want to eat,

really.

What do I want?

To get rid

of these pains...

and live long...,

for ever...

I want a good flat

and creative work.

I want my family

to be healthy and happy,

so that

we could always have a great talk.

It's strange to think

so much is in the past...

Life is so short...

My youth and young years couldn't last...

Somehow I don't want

to imagine my future...

What can it bring, anyway!

While there's so much to do

by way

of prayer,

creativity

and promotion of my art -

a whole array

of things...

Shall I have enough time,

enough health,

enough heart

to fulfill

all this,

to build

a bridge

into the future,

a bridge

that will live longer,

much longer than me?

Not like The Bridge of San Luis Rey,

but an inivisible thing

that will support art fugitif,

art figuratif...

I know,

my ideas are strong,

but I need to prolong

this way

after I go away...

July 30, 2023

***

9. I've never seen such a rain...

I'd say it was a tropical and shower rain,

but no!

It was a torrential rain -

cold, unforgiving...

A storm, in fact,

with thunder and with gusts of wind,

which sounded like earthquake.

It wasn't just cats and dogs,

but a waterfall,

a thick wall

blocking us from the world...

I've never seen such rains,

at least, not in the summer...

It was unreally frightening and vicious

leaving whole pools,

no - lakes of water on the asphalt...

I didn't want to go out on that day,

even if that rain would have been followed

by some sunshine...

It wasn't.

The sky was grey and closed.

There was a short break

and then the rain came back again.

I've never ever seen such rains...

July 26, 2023

***

10. And yet I've lived this broken life of mine.

It's better anyway

than

not at all...

Ironically

I have been always envied -

for everything

and now...

I actually do not mind...

This envy of insightless people

has come to show me -

I did possess

what they could not imagine,

could never ever have...

So I am grateful...

But that's not what

I really want to say...

July 19, 2023

***

11. Diptych

1. Mannequin girls

The mannequin girls

are always impassive and sad -

standing,

sitting,

reclining,

playing golf...

Chin down,

head - up

or no head at all -

who would care!

Nobody takes any notice withall.

Important

are only their clothes

or underwear -

red, violet, brown...

Isn't that fair?

Their faces are masks -

no eyes,

sometimes just fabric

or a golden metalic vizor.

Some of them

have wooden joints

for the hands and arms

like Pinocchio's,

some have black legs or no legs -

just a stand.

They may have no hair or lips either.

What's their end?

The mannequin girls

are always impassive and sad -

their hearts do not matter,

only the clothes -

green, black or red...

Do they think they do not deserve a friend?

Do they have any thoughts?

Can they, in fact, think?

The mannequin girls

are always impassive and sad -

what's their end - one wink?

Who knows!

Faceless, hairless, without legs or thoughts -

that is how their fate goes on...

http://lit.lib.ru/img/s/slobodkina_o/mannequingirlsdoc/index.shtml

2. Mannequin men

The mannequin men

are more dignified.

Sitting or standing

they seem to be able to clearly define

what it is up to - pretending.

They're more like businessmen -

making money... That's all.

They do not care

what we think about them withall -

just selling clothes and underwear.

Some play football or golf.

Isn't that fair?

The mannequin men

take their lives

for what they are worth -

without a feeling.

Love, tenderness,

dismay or wrath

do not seem to be their concern -

they won't hit the ceiling.

Their end, however, is the same as the girls' -

luckily they don't know it.

They cannot imagine an abyss - its whirls.

Nothing appaling...

http://lit.lib.ru/img/s/slobodkina_o/mmendoc/index.shtml

June 20, June 23, 2023

***

12. I thought

that car wouldn't wait for me,

but - lo! it did.

You may not know

just what I mean...

It was a glossy car

and black

and it was standing

at the entrance of a block

of flats,

and not so far

while

there was an ash-tree

growing above...

It dropped florescence,

withered,

on its roof,

capote and windscreen,

the trunk and rear window...

It looked

as beautiful as love!

I tried to make

a take...

Die Batterie war leer...*

So I

walked home...

I really wanted to go back

to use my chance,

but my covid fatigue,

which seems to be eternal,

kept me in.

I went to bed and fell asleep

and slept all night without stirring...

I thought that car

wouldn't wait for me,

but lo! - it did.

For once the rule,

rule of the moment, didn't work.

Exception proves the rule...

That car was there the next day -

noone had cleaned it.

In broad daylight -

it was right there!

And my abstraction takes

turned out

to be great!!!

At night when I was on my way

home

from the starry park

I took what I should have

the night before...

Oh, I expected the night takes

to be much more

than those of daylight,

but... yo-ho!

They were not half as good...

You never know...

That car, however, waited for me -

there you go...

No cleaning...

Now you must know

what I did mean to say

at the beginning...

April 29, 2023

_____________________________

*The battery was out (German)

***

13. David and Uriah

1 Kings 15:5: Because David did that which was right in the eyes of the LORD, and turned not aside from any thing that he commanded him all the days of his life, save only in the matter of Uriah the Hittite.

What made David send Uriah to the flash point of the war?

His love for Uriah's wife,

which was, indeed, lust.

Rembrandt portrayed that in 1665 -

Uriah leaving David...

and the prophet Nathan,

who tried to reason with David

and prevent Uriah's death...

But.. without very much success...

Uriah was killed in that war.

David wrote a Psalm...

I don't think it meant much for Uriah the Hittite -

he lost Bathsheba, his wife,

he lost his love,

he lost his life...

David's repentance

mattered only to the Lord,

whose commandments he never broke

in "all the days of his life,

save only in the matter of Uriah the Hittite"...

Bathsheba

became David's wife

and gave birth

to King Solomon,

on earth.

Oh, the children of Cain!!!

Poor Abel also died in vain...

May 15, 2023

***

14.

2 Corinthians 4:18

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal... "

I go on photographing shadows.

They are sweet nothings,

fleeting things...

They'll disappear with the sunlight,

but the image...

The image stays as long as the material world

allows it to stay...

Things visible are perishable,

Eternal are the Invisible ones...

April 14, 2023

***

15. Life on Earth

is all about

the healing

and

destructive force...

April 10, 2023

***

16. People would not believe sincere cries,

They would believe sophisticated lies.

April 6, 2023

***

17. So much was said about death

while we don't know

the long journey of the soul

to the Throne of the Lord.

So...

let's better talk about life,

although

we do not know,

we don't know either,

but we can sing and dance

and write

and laugh

and photograph...

April 6, 2023

***

18. Winter is over.

Ignoring our will.

Life is ceaselessly flowing.

We float with it

whether we want it or not until...

Why did we have all that bliss in the mind

when we were kids?

It was a blessing from God -

for He managed to use us as characters in His Great Epos called Life...

Life or death...

There is no death...

Easter is near...

April 4, 2023

***

19. Youth

All that belonged to us -

the little yard with trees,

with little wooden houses,

the mansion's also ours -

PALACE FOR CHILDREN...

Yes, poor we were.

Who wasn't at that time!

We didn't care.

Nobody cared.

But we felt rich -

inside,

we were in love,

our parents young

and full of life

and happy...

And life itself

that seemed to be Eternal

was evolving

like happiness itself.

We were in love...

We thought

that all the happiness

was well in store for us

and that was just a bridge

to happiness,

just the beginning

of the future treasures

while it was real bliss...

We realised it later,

later,

later...

Oct.22, 2004

***

20. If I could have gone back

to have my life replayed...

Would this new way have betrayed

the same way

or in a different way?

July 30, 2023

***

21. It's May. It's still cold.

The desirable is unattainable...

Life and time -

whatever you do -

are passing through...

"We're just passing through,"

said a lady in the film

"Before the Moon".*

The first two films were cool,

fine,

but a film about a happy family life

is unbearable

bringing forth a sardonic smile.

That is why

all the films,

stories and plays

end with a wedding

and then...

who knows!

But that's not a subject for both,

i.e. either.

And only when

there comes a trage-

art starts

lifting its chin

in a hope

to create something

new

there has never been,

I mean,

before,

and will be

never more.

May 6, 2023

_________________________________________

*"Before Sunrise", "Before Sunset" and "Before Midnight" - 3 films by Richard Stuart Linklater

________________________________________

***

22. Zig-zag Poetry

When

read

"The Rockefellers"

Roberts

Blossom

thought

that I

do not

understand a lot

of what

I'd love to

understand

and

the End

is looming...

have not

received

a lot

of what

I wanted

to receive

and

on the eve

of Easter

I can only whisper:

"God!"

will not

remember

you,

myself,

my mother

in other

lives...

Time

a piece of

amber

will make us

bugs

in the transparent

Paradise.

March 16, 1989

***

23. And all the libraries will keep

My tense and concentrated spirit,

But I will be... I will no longer be

In this domain... You don't believe it?

Tear it.

May 3, 1999

The End of Part Two

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Слободкина Ольга Concept and Verdigo. Part Two

Слободкина Ольга
Concept and Verdigo. Part Two