There are two sides of it -
  the active and the passive.
The active is the doer, that's Cain.
  The passive is the sufferer - that's Abel
who had a Revelation from the Lord.

I am so tired to bear
  the jealousy of all the jealous people.
Their energy is pure suffocation
  and poison to my blood.

What if I start to be the active side?
Maybe I'll suffer less?

I'm trying to accumulate
  the energy of envy,
     trying to tune my nerves
      to envy someone...

No! Doesn't work at all.
  How can I envy those
who are devoid
   of the Allmighty's Love!

The Lord is laughing at me
  from His Eternal Heights.

"If you were born
   like Abel, Joseph, David,
don't try to live like Caine and Joseph's brothers."




Feb. 4 2006